Should I Be Laughing or Crying...

Sadness involving me

like a small island surrounded by the sea

no escape is there to seek

no way out to the land of the free

finally I knew the answer I need

finally I found the key of all the locked doors within me

It's not you to be blamed nor the bad luck I forced into the game

it's my weakness that prevails every time I'm close to u my dear

my heart beats that get mad when I see the shadow of ur image crossing my stream

my fears that arise like daemons haunting my determination to get to u

telling me the delusion "what if she restab u?"

"what if she is too hurt to talk to u?"
"Something u should put in ur mind too"

but I tell them "deep down I feel she won't do it again"

"kills me twice in cold blood! Hell no"

and the look in her eyes blames me "why u are late?"

So Plz my pretty queen,

my tender daily breeze,

my sanity in the world of insane,

set ur guilt free

put it all there on me

get ride of this sadness on ur face that kills me

and believe...

I forgave u along time ago

at the exact moment u told me no

it's never ur fault to regret its trails

it's my curse , my weakness between ur hands

my frozen time in ur eyes I can't escape

sweetie...

everyday I pray for a peace with my sadness

asking God for a tiny chance of happiness

I pray fate gives u all ur wishes

even if the price requires my ashes

I'd burn with my sorrow

spare the world another morron

goodness the clock is ticking and I fear I lose u

everyday ur dignity bleeds more

killing ur patience u fought for

my weakness I hate u

why chose among all the fears to stand before her

my weakness I hate u